Ok so I'm a little mad and this has been bothering me for quite some time now. I work at a grocery store and one if my main jobs is to check someone out. Now in California we have EBT and WIC items and that's for people who need a little extra help each month. I think it is a wonderful idea because I see a lot of people using it and getting what they need when they need it. I think WIC is wonderful because without it people are spending hundreds of dollars on baby formula a month, I really don't understand why it has to cost so much.

Well lately I've beens eeing these people who have WIC and EBT cards that I don't think deserve them. I mean how can you be in so much finical trouble if you can get your nails done every two weeks? Thats atleast sixty dollars a month that you can be saving yourself. Then you help them out to their car and they are either driving a BMW or a Tahoe gas guzzler! Another problem I have are the people who live their lives on EBT and WIC, they continuely have kids just so they can get a free ride in society.

To be completely honest, I am so tired of it. Why do I have to give a portion of my hard earned pay check to them. Obviously they aren't trying to change their fincial situation because if they were they wouldn't be getting their nails done and they wouldn't have fancy cars. I just don't understand why our government doesn't look more into things like this and actually sees where these peoples money actually goes to. I bet a lot of those people wouldn't be on EBT and WIC if the government actually paid attention to them every once and a while.

I Never Really Understand...

Guys. I don't get them. I wish I knew what was going on inside their minds sometimes and what causes them to think stupid things. I cannot tell you how man times I talk with a guy and find out that something is up with a girl he is diggin on and when he expresses his problems to me, I just have to look at him and shake my head. Then you try to help him and tell him advice but there is no point because he doesn't listen to you!

Aye, so yes this is all emotions that are bottled up inside of me. Yes, I might have a guy I was sweet on and had this happen to me. And yes, it sucks. It sucks cause you see a person you care about going through sometime tough and you try and attempt to help them and it hurts when they don't take your advice. It also hurts to see a guy you like trying to win the love of some other girl that doesn't deserve him. In moments like this I do two things. When I'm talking to the guy I play it cool, try to help him any way I can. When he is gone or doing something I just break down and cry. I don't like doing this but I just have to because its good to get your feelings out and not bottle them up inside.

Ok...well I just wanted to get that out. This blog isn't for my mushy gooshy love life. Ha. Thanks for listening to my rant.

You Know What Really Grinds My Gears?

Good evening all,
So it's time for a little rant. The last few days have been numerous activities that have just pushed my buttons and now I am going to let it out. First my phone. I hate it, a lot. I have the LG Chocolate and it sucks, it sucks a lot. This is my second Chocolate because my first one decided to just stop working on me after a year and now this one won't charge. I've only had this phone for maybe a month and it isn't charging and it's just annoying me. Most people who know me will tell you that I live off my phone, I am consistently texting and calling people, its my life and I know people get mad about that but sorry live with it. I use to be able to wrap the phone charger's cord around my phone and let it charge and now I can't even do that. I literally have to sit here with the phone in one hand and the charger in another and pray to the holy Gods that if I hold it to right way it will charge. I really need a new phone. Badly. I keep looking at the pretty pink Blackberry and sigh because I can't afford it. One day I will but for now it's the junky Chocolate for the win.

Second. My Xbox. This is another incident where if you were to ask someone they will tell you that my best friend is the Xbox. Technology is my friend let me tell you. I live for my Xbox and yes a lot of people think it is sad, a twenty year old girl playing video games. Well its more then that, its a life line between my best friend and I. My best friend lives 2000+ miles away in the lovely Ohio while I am here in California. People would think why not just talk on the phone? Well after a while that gets a little boring. With the Xbox we can sit and play a game of UNO together and chat about our day, just like we would do in real life. Ah see get my gest now. Ok. Well its not working! I'm thinking the sever is down but that does not make it ok cause I was actually in the middle of a nice conversation with her and some friends.

Third. My Mom. Ok. So I've been getting a talking to about going to sleep at a decent hour. For me thats really hard. For the most part I've never really gone to bed before three in the morning. Why? I don't know. I don't sleep much and I guess I never will. My Mom is getting angry with me because she calls my phone, which is garbage, and I don't wake up to it. Now she is use to me being about to hear is ring through my dreams and having me groggly picking it up. Well ever since night crew I have not been able to do that. Now that school is about to start she wants me to stop staying up late and actually going to sleep. Sadly thats not going to be happening with me. I don't see the problem with going to be at three or four am and waking up at eleven am. I don't start class until two pm and I know I won't be going to work before that time. Atleast I'm not like some people and sleep until three in the afternoon.

So taking a book from Peter Griffin's book I will say this. "You know what really grinds my gears?" Well its my phone, my xbox, and when sleeping is invovled, my mom. And with that said I am going to go and get a milkshake a learn one of my favorite Fray ongs on the piano. Until next time.

Bridezilla

Hello,
Ok so I haven't been around for a few days but I have been extremely busy with work and such. I was going to come on here and talk about the awesome concert I went to on Saturday but I'll save that for a different day because my goodness I need to get this out.

I have an aunt and in exactly a month she is getting married. I was lucky enough to be part of the wedding and be on of her bridesmaids. For me, everything has been going ok, not too much has been asked of me except to take a few days off here and there and blow up some balloons. Well now that we are getting closer to the wedding, the stress is becoming more extreme and people are fighting. Let me give you a little run down on whats been happening. My Aunt T is mad at my Aunt that is getting married because she wasn't chosen as the maid of honor, messed up I know. My Mom doesn't really care but is still being kind and trying to help with the wedding. My Aunt T is throwing the bridal shower which is this Saturday. This week we got the invitation for my Aunt's barchorlette party. My Mom and Aunt T decided not to do because Saturday is usually their only day off. My sister, who is also a bridesmaid, isn't going. She doesn't know yet but I'm not going either. We all have our reasons why but my Aunt revises to listen. For the last couple days she has been calling my Grandma and crying and screaming that she has to make my Mom and Aunt T go to the party. Each day these phone calls get worst and worst.

Ok so everyone is up to date. Fast forward to today, here I am on roughly two hours of sleep and I come to my Grandma house, a usually Tuesday event. Not even an hour after I get here the phone calls start with her screaming and cry ing to my Grandma on the phone. She is calling my Grandma names and saying that no one cares about her and all that bologna. Finally my Grandma has enough and starts to cry and hangs up. This is where I come into the picture, no one and I mean no one messes with my Grandama, especailly her own daughter. So I decided to take matters into my own hands and when my aunt calls back I basicly tell her to "F" off and goodbye and hang up on her. Was it the wisest thing for me to do? No but it made me and everyone else in my family feel better. I get my Grandma calmed down and then the phone calls start again. She calls about four times without us picking up then deicides to change plans and calls me Aunt T. Long story short, she thinks everyone hates her and all that lovely drama that goes with it.

This problem has yet to be resolved and we have a bridal shower in four days, I'm eager to see how it turns out and trust me I will be back on here to let all you people know how it goes as well. But thanks for listening to my mini rant, it feels really good to let it all out. And for all you brides out there who are reading this and think that I am wrong, I love my Aunt and I would do anything for her, actually I have done a lot for her. I understand that this is consider "your day" and you want it to be special, well it isn't going to be specail with only you, your family is the one that is helping to make it specail and we understand you are stressed but so are we. So when this happens to you my advice is to take a deep breath, grab a beer, and put a smile on your face because you will only make it worst by screaming and yelling.

I'm Sorta New To This

Hi...
I guess I should introduce myself. Now most people are going to want to know my name and who I am and where I live and such. Well to protect myself and the people I am going to talk about here, I'll use a nickname. So, I'm Tink, yes just like Tinkerbell. I guess I chose this name because I've always been a major fan of Tinkerbell and for most of my life it has been a nickname and it just stuck. So everyone out in the cyber world, I am Tink. I am twenty years old and not so normal, but what do you really consider normal? I live in California and when I tell most people that they think "Oh man she is in LA or San Fransisco!" Yea, not so much. I actually live in a small town in California and if you were to drive through it, you wouldn't even notice that it was an actual town. I guess thats the main things you need to know about me. I'm not very complex and I like it that way.

Now lets talk about the blog. Writing is one of my greatest passions. I love it so much that I decided to make a career out of it. I'm starting my third year of college and majoring in Journalism and minoring in Radio Production. I decided to start this blog because I feel in a rut with my writing. Between school and work I feel like I have let my ability to write escape me and that doesn't make me happy. I look back to a few years ago when I use to write for my towns newspaper each week and have notebook after notebook filled with my writing, now I'm lucky if I can even think of writing. I one day hope to write for a magazine and I would die to be an editor in cheif. I know that my dream is going to take a while for me to acheive and its going to be an emotional roller coaster but I think I'm prepared for it.

Sometimes at night I sit in my room and think about what my day constist of. It makes me laugh because its a whole lot of nothing and I sometimes wonder why. All I do during the day is wake up, usually around nine or ten in the morning. I take my shower and do my necessary things to get ready for my day. Depending on my schedual and what time I work I usaually pop on my Xbox 360, yes I'm a girl and I play the Xbox. When I go to work, I actually work. I know, funny right, an actually "kid" actually working. For me, I take my job seriously, it might not be my job forever but it's still my job and I try to do it to the best of my ability. Depending on my job I work anywhere from four to eight hours and usually get off at midnight unless my boss hates me and gives me the night shift, which makes me work from eleven at night until seven thirty in the morning. By the time I'm off work I feel like I'm fifty years old, especailly working the night shift, and I come home and crash in my bed. I don't go to bed until five am usually because I'm yet again on my Xbox and chatting with my friends. Now you look at this and think "Wow, loser, she doesn't do anything." I do actually do a lot during the day and my job is very physcially demanding at times but you have your opions and I'll leave them to you.

I'll leave this first blog with just saying Thank You. Thanks for giving me your time of day, even if it was for a moment and I hope that I will one day influence people, how....I'm not entirely sure but its just a thought and I will wait and see what the future holds for me.